Ok, let me get you all caught up here on my journey. I'm 5'7" and I use to weigh 110 lbs before I ever had children. When I got pregnant with my son I gained 80 lbs! YES!! 80 freakin pounds!! That's just ridiculous, right? I weighed 190 lbs when I went to the hospital to deliver him. Afterwards, I weighed 170 lbs, but only went back up from there. In November 2010 I found out I was pregnant again. I was about 180-185 lbs then. I gained about 30 lbs this time. So in July, when I went to deliver my baby girl, I weighed 215 lbs! We didn't have a scale at home, so I don't know how much i weighed after the delivery. Now, with two kids, it's hard to find time to eat, let alone make a healthy meal just for you, (I tried Slimfast, Special K, Healthy Choice, Smart Ones, Lean Cuisines...) so I just started eating whatever Jace was eating... mac & cheese, hotdogs, pizza, pb&j, grilled cheese... all that stuff that an adult woman should NOT consume! I did the exercise at home, until I realized I could just quit whenever I wanted because no one was there to push me. "Oh, Joei is awake, she probably needs to eat." or "Oh, poor Jace! He wants mommy to play moster trucks with him.".... yeah. Well it got to the point where I realized I would go days without even looking in a mirror, the only clothes I was wearing were "comfy" ones, and out of the million pictures that I take, I'm not in any of them! I have tons of great pics with my husband and kids, yet I'm the one home with them all day every day! This is NOT me. I use to want to be a model! If there was an outfit I liked, I bought it. If there was a mirror around, I glanced in it. If there was a camera, I was in front of it. I miss that girl! Now I know I will never be 110 lbs again, and I don't want to be! I am a mother now & I am super proud of that! I will forever have curves. I am a woman, not a girl. But, I miss going out and dancing in the middle of the floor without caring who's looking. I miss going out with my girls and acting as stupid as I wanted without caring about anything! So, in January 2012, we got a scale... I stepped on it.... 200 lbs!! Are you kidding me?!? I looked in the mirror, standing there in my baggy old t-shirt & sweat pants... gross. This is not who I want to be. Time to change... NOW. Not just another diet, not just half- assed work outs. I need something to work, & that will last. I NEVER want to be this big again, not even if i have another baby. So I remembered Jerry's cousins Alecia & Jacob, and his aunt Paula, they did The Master Cleanse and had such great success, especially Jacob! Go figure, men can drop weight like it's nothing! But I had thought about it in the past and just knew I couldn't stop eating food for 10 days! No way!! Well, I had reached my snapping point! It's time. I WILL do it. Not just to lose the weight, but for a fresh start! A clean slate! It's a body detox system, not a weight loss plan. So I can rid my body of all the toxins. If I go 10 days without giving into food, it will help me mentally & emotionally. And I always make healthy meals for my family at dinner time (minus a random pizza night every few months), but my biggest problem is my portions! Since I have become so custom to just eating and eating until I was stuffed, i didn't realize i didn't NEED that much food!! So here I am... Day 5 of the Master Cleanse. And I feel great!
Day 1: Super hard!! However, the lemonade mixture tasted better than what I thought it was going to! Almost like bacon! My body felt a little weak, almost achy, and I was FREEZING!! I knew all this was going to be happening to my body though,so I stayed strong. Making lunch & dinner was the hardest part! Went on an evening walk w/ my neighbor... about 35 mins.
Day 2: No energy, just plain tired. Everything looked and smelled delicious! I wanted to cave so incredibly bad!! But, I stepped on the scale... 5 lbs gone!! WHAT?!?!? Not stopping.
Day3: Woke up feeling super energized!! And the energy stayed to the WHOLE day!! I felt great and making the meals were a breeze. My son even handed me an oreo cookie and i didn't even hesitate putting it down! Went on an evening walk with my neighbor.... about 40 mins.
Day 4: Woke up feeling great again! Not as easy as the day before, I wanted food. While cooking dinner I had a mini breakdown. Yelling at my poor husband about how he'll never understand because he is required to workout for work & he his body will never go through the crap mine has... waaaaaa... I wanted to cave again, I hated not being able to eat, but I hate being fat even more! So I stepped on the scale... almost 10 lbs gone!! Keep going...
Day 5: Here we are! I'm doing great! Don't even want anything... yet! Started a work out routine today as well. Did 30 jumping jack, 10 crunches, & 5 pushups. Looking forward to my walk tonight, & I hope the day keeps going as smoothly as it has been!
Right before I got pregnant with my little man... yes... that's paint... sorry, it's all I have at the moment to shows off my body.
most recent full body pic of me... Dec 24, 2011... gross!!
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